abandonment issues.

get ready for a really long entry. an entry that might allow you to get to know me a little bit more.

u know what kind of makes me hate myself?
hate my life sometimes?

is when i think about what could have happened.

this mostly happens when i log into facebook.
i see all my friends from previous schools.
so all these questions come up in my mind..
then i start imagining how my life would be.

what if i never left ISKL?
would i still be great friends with these people that i often see photos of?
having fun... stylish but at the same time not really stylish.
it's just what they wear... so to them it's just something simple.
care-free.
dont think about what others think about them.
having a large circle of friends that support you in whatever you do and actually give you encouragement.

what if i never left laguardia high school?
not to brag, but just to introduce the story so you know...
i was in honor classes for both french and math.
so... would my french be fluent?
would i be a math genius?
i've always loved math.. but ever since i graduated high school...
it all left.
i mean.. i don't learn it much in my course now.
would i still be studying in the states?
would i be going back to new york every winter break?

when i look at all the pictures..
it makes me hate my life.. where i am standing now.
okay.. let me story a little bit.

i've never stayed in a country for more than 4 years at a time.
it's always 4 yrs here... then 2 yrs back in malaysia.
then off to another country for 4 yrs.. then back to malaysia for 2 yrs.
and it continues.
i've never lived in malaysia for more than 6 years in total.
those 2 yrs going back and forth?
add them up and you'll get... give or take about 6 years.
do you know how hard it is for a kid to cope with the surroundings and make new friends?
be comfortable with those friends?
love those friends?
then to have it all taken away cos their parents have to move to another country?

i would have to say ISKL and LaGuardia High School were the 2 most lovable schools for me.
those were places i had real good friends.
i had 4 best friends in ISKL.
i still remember how we all met.
we did everything together.
we always had sleep overs.
we car-pooled.
we gossiped.
we even made prank calls to whoever each other had a crush on.
i still remember... i made a call to a guy called Tod for one of my best friends called Karin.
i was stupid back then. haha.
so i never thought to disguise my voice or anything.
Tod immediately recognized my voice.
and i think i was like..."what?? no... " trying to cover up.
but it didn't work.
obviously when the next day in school he looked at me weirdly.
hahaha.

but you know,
all those days had to go..
when i had to leave for new york.
nobody in the class knew i was gonna leave.
it was over the summer.
once 7th grade started... my name was called out to give my class schedule.
but my best friends had shouted out that i had left.
they told me that some people asked questions and some were surprised.
it kind of made me sad.
cos afterwards... our friendship broke apart.
one started to go one way..
the 2nd started to go another way...
and you know how it goes.
we weren't the same anymore.

i visited once afterwards.
but only a few people remembered me.
there were already new students in the class.

LaGuardia.
it's actually a question of .. what if i never left new york.
i had really good friends there too.
the ones who stick out for me...
who even spent my last day right after school with me.
bought me presents and had a going away event for me.
to list some... christine, arielle, leandro, cristina, stephanie, nicole, barry, bernard, jose, jessica, eghe...
the ones i usually chill with and talk to.
there were so many more.
having fun and wasting our time in the double period art class. (since i was an art major)
helping each other out during other classes..
doing our own thing and not listening to the teachers in biology..history...
making fun of the chemistry teacher who was gay (no problem with gay people) and using terms "this guy" and "that guy" for particles (which is what we had a problem with).
it was like "this guy crowds around that guy and they hold on to each other very tight which makes it a something-or-other bond."
lol
sticking with each other for lunch periods cos we wouldn't all have the same lunch time.
we went shopping right after classes..
it's new york.
you can go shopping on any street.
taking the subway and making so many noises like it was just us and no one else.
i remember once we had a whole car to ourselves.
i don't remember why though.
we ran around, climbed the seats, took pictures... sang.. shouted.

but all of that is gone.
only about 3 of them still keep in touch.
and that's if they see an update and then they would remember.
i remember.. arielle cried cos her mom wouldn't let her spend my last day with me around the city.
when we had to send christine home cos her mom wouldn't let her out too long..
we all cried on the sidewalk next to the sago (bubble tea) shop.
arielle was the first person i called and cried to when i found out i had to leave for south africa.
i was mad at my parents.
but no matter how much i cried...
no matter how red my face gets...
no matter how hard it was for me to breathe...
i couldn't change their mind to let me stay.

now that's all gone.
i was never that close to the friends in AISJ in south africa.
they were already a clan before i got there so i sort of just a visitor, an extra.
i had problems before.
of being social.
i was shy, liked to keep to myself... and kind of a loner.
now im starting to get better ..social-wise.
but there's still a part of me that's not so accepting of other people.
i kind of get mad and sensitive when there's an issue of abandoning friends.
or even if i feel abandoned just a little bit.
cos that's what's been happening to me since i was small.
not by family. but by friends who i really connected with.
of course i couldn't blame them.
it wasn't them that had to move away.

a long time ago, there used to be a time when i was friends with every ethnicity.. a variety of nationalities.
now i'm in a place where it's kind of hard to make friends with other nationalities.
but thankfully i have my malaysian buddies.
there used to be a time when i go out, it would be with a circle of friends that always remember to let me in.
but now mostly its just about 3-4 people?
sometimes there are those gatherings that we plan.
we go bowling... go sight seeing.
crabbing. cooking together then eating together.
the villagers and some others, when they're there.
those are the times i really love.
when you get home you have someone to talk to.
i'll have to pass someone's door.
i don't even get to put my bag down or change my clothes...and we're already talking in the hallway.
when there's so many people around you.
you feel that if you fall... there will always be a friend around to hold on to.

but then.
if i never left iskl...
if i never left new york...
who know's where i'd be?
i might not be as successful at continuing my studies as i am now.
i might not be as independent as i am now.
i might not be able to meet the friends i have made in australia.
i might not have met my B.
i might not be as lucky as i am now.

most important of all,
i might not be the person i am today.

so it kind of balances out.
when i think of all the what-ifs...
there's always the "might nots" that will balance it out.

p.s. sorry for the random blog entry. i had just logged into facebook. haha.

p.p.s. just so that no one gets the wrong idea about this blog.. i meant to say that i cherish the moments and the friends. then. and now. :) <3 suryani

i actually wanted to update this blog with something more... fun to read about.
like the suasana of boxing day in Dublin, Ireland.
but i lost my train of happy thoughts...
kind of lingered into a bad mood.
so strike that.

but then i wanted to watch something.
anything before i sleep.
so i went to youtube.
looked into x-factor videos.
then ended up with akademi fantasia videos.
i know.
WTFISHHHHHH??!!!! right?

i don't know what got into me.
i never followed AF6.
i didn't even know it was up to 6.
i just searched and it only went up to 6.
i don't even know who the winner is.
i don't even wanna know who the winner is.

but i'll tell you what..
it made me laugh real hard.
like.. ROFL... as i am currently lying on the floor.
i donno lah.
it was fun to watch and follow.. maybe during the first 3 seasons?
or maybe just the first two.
but now it's just... mere entertainment.
not-looking-for-a-potential-singing-celebrity kind of crap.
they even have people winning things if they vote thru sms the most.
like... winning... big, expensive things.
i think a car... or an apartment.
whatever shiyat.
but D-UH!
who wouldn't want to vote?!

but whatever it is,
it was fun to watch.
very entertaining.
let's all audition for it, shall we?
it's an experience, we know that much.

and who knows...maybe we can learn better from it.

<3 suryani

kerayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyzee!

so.

it's the 12.04am which officially brings us 4 minutes into boxing day :D
i'm not entirely sure what day boxing day is...
some says it's a day after christmas...
some say it's on the 27th...
so for me.. as long as the sale starts... i don't care!

yesterday we went to Kildare Village, a shopping outlet...
not so big compared to New Jersey's Woodbury Common Outlet.. i think that's what it's called.
been a while since i've been there... so don't remember it as much.
but what i know was the shopping there was WONDERFUL.
anyway...
back to Kildare Village.
since my two sisters didn't come along...because there wasn't enough room in the car and the other one is still dalam pantang...
shopping with my parents and brother was no fun.
everyone wants to rush.
the first store we hit was Polo Ralph Lauren...and i got lined up to pay for the winter scarf i wanted...
everyone else except my mom waited outside.
then when i got to the counter i asked the lady if this particular bag was on sale because it wasn't indicated.
she asked me to show it to her and she'll scan and see.
fortunately for me it was!!!
i asked my mom if i could buy it.. and she was contemplating..
becoming very the runsing one and finally just said yes.
so i just swiped my credit card haha.
then when my dad found out.. he was already a little upset with that tone of his that makes us know that he thinks it's unnecessary and he didnt say it directly but it was obvious they don't want me to be buying anymore.
i went into other stores of course but didn't go through thoroughly because i knew if i liked something.. they wouldn't let me buy it.
so we may have stayed.. paling lama 1 hour...
then we left.
me with just two items.
which sucks.
big time!

now.. today... the sale officially starts.
yesterday only a few stores were open.
kildare village being one of them.
on the 27th... the store NEXT is known for it's extra-early opening time.
5am!!!!
but listen... the branch near to where i live... it opens at 4am!!!
hehehe.
since no guy in this house wants to wake up that early for shopping (big shocker...-_-!)
a friend of my sister's has offered to bring us!!
because she had no geng utk teman...
but we're not going at 4. we're actually arriving there at 5.
hopefully the good things aren't gone yet.
believe me.. thousands of people are already crowding outside the store at 3.59am.
probably even before that.
even as the security gate of the store goes up halfway.. people are already ducking down underneath to get inside.
sheesh!

so yeah.
hopefully...
i'll be satisfied with my shopping for today :D

til then...

<3 suryani

it's beginning to look a lot like christmas... everywhere you go... :)

this blog... even though my family doesn't read it..
i'd like to give a shoutout on this very special day for these two people:

HAPPY 3-YR ANNIVERSARY
to my Kaklong, my eldest sister, Suraya Kamarudin, and my brother-in-law, Farid Kadir.

i just came back from pushing Qystina on her little pooh bear bicycle.
she's so cute.
she doesn't know how to paddle, so she just puts her feet up and pushes the buttons that plays the honking sounds and the pooh bear songs.
lol.
she's been couped up in the house for a few days already.
so her mom felt bad.. and just wanted to bring her out of the house to breathe in some fresh air.

then her dad came home and brought flowers for my sister.
awww..
im telling you guys out there... it's not that hard to buy gifts for a girl.
because there's so many variety of things...
but it's the simplest thing that makes it feel so special and sweet.
now.. buying gifts for guys is hard.
because there's so little to choose from.
it's always... wallet, clothes, (sometimes)pants, cologne(rarely), tie...
and the cycle continues.
kalau perempuan.. senang je...
beli la.. one dozen bunga jenis yg dia suke...
a card that expresses ur feelings towards her...
and maybe a cute and cuddly teddy bear.
but then again.. who knows. maybe it's the same situation for guys.
maybe they think because that's all us girls ever get for gifts.. they need to find another idea...
then complications arise. haha..

anyway.. i'd like to put a picture up of what happened to qystina earlier this morning.
but it's still in my camera and hasn't been uploaded yet.
she bumped into the edge of the dinner table and she hurt her eye lid.
now it's just a little swollen and she has one sepet eye.
she's so cute with big beautiful eyes and a little talkative...
when u see her bouncing around the house... with her sepet eye.. it just makes u feel bad.
but she'll be okay.
she's a strong girl :)

p.s. Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates it :) the christmas environment here is really great. the decorations are wonderful. but nothing beats Christmas in New York. wish i was there again...

p.p.s. to khai: final straw tu.. straw yg paleng last la. hahaha. xde la.. it means.. like.. i'm not gonna take it anymore la. mcm tu last chance la yanie kasi die...hope that explains it. sorry kalau x berape make sense. hahaha

<3 suryani

it's the final straw!

even though i just updated a while ago...
i just needed to say this...

i'm feeling very inspirational.
at this very moment.

i felt a little bit bad about how i acted just now..
the thing that led me to write up my previous blog entry...
there was actually more of a split personality going on in my mind.
i felt bad.. but then i know i'm not supposed to because i'm not wrong.
i know the other person is wrong... but then i know i should've just let it go cos i know these people are like this.
argh.
u see what goes on in my head????
this is why i get crazy sometimes.

anyway...
although that was all happening...
i now feel very inspirational...
i'm gonna show those who thought very low of me..
who never thought i had it in me to do this.
just watch.
this isn't a threat.
but a caution to take.
just so you're not too shocked when i've finally done it.

<3 suryani

not okay.

fcuk.
and when you scramble the words around... you get.....????
come on, be smart.

do not wrongly misinterpret someone.
do not FITNAH anyone when you haven't seen it for yourself.
this just gets me more annoyed than i already am.

aku hilang kejap je... dh cari aku.
hello? am i getting paid to help you?
no. i'm doing it willingly for nothing.
please appreciate my kindness.

on another note:
18 more days.
woah. didn't know time went by so fast.
the way i looked at it... i thought it was gonna be a while til i leave.
but now that i've counted and typed it, 18 days isn't that long!

til then, :)

<3 suryani

sedangkan ku tahu sikapnya begitu.

hate is a strong word.
strong enough to use it now.

boleh rase the aura just turned really strange.
silent.
and full of....
HATE!

some people just can't think right.. you know?
dah lulus kolej.. uni...dah start keje dah pon
but still acting like...
an airhead? a dumb bitch? like everything revolves around them?

wanting to be like others.
is it such a great thing?
can't you be your own individual?
made up of your own personality?
don't you think if you act like someone else, dress like someone else...
it's just all fake...
and the people who claimed to be your friends are only friends with you for the person you are NOT?
okay la. belit2 sket...
but you get the gist of it righT?

i'm not writing this randomly.
i just hate those kind of people.
and on top of that...suke tipu lak tu!!!
tipu.. tak reti nak cover.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

then when this happens..
everyone's mood changes.
and it affects everyone else around them!
for some reason when you're angry or annoyed.. all that emotion seems to be thrown towards the wrong person.
aiyo.

<3 suryani

and i open my eyes.

good morning!
not so much on the good...

i don't understand why people can't be more open-minded about life.
about people...
and about the culture today.
i mean... yea... things are changing.
sure... mostly not for the good.
but not all.
being open-minded about life now and being accepting to several new things might give you a new look on life.

why are parents still match-making their children without the children's knowledge?
why are parents still forcing children to marry partners they don't care for or don't even know.
at such a young age.
maybe that was the way of life back then.
but now... people actually find love first and then decide whether they want to marry or not.
i know. not all do this... but most. maybe half.
and maybe it's still acceptable today.. but if the child was.. say... 40yrs old and still a bachelor/ette.
isn't it experience that allows us to learn from our mistakes?
so what happens when there's no dipping your toe in the water first?
what if you just dive full in?
not knowing what's underneath.

why do people still look at physical appearance to decide whether a person is good enough or not?
evil or good?
believe me, i've met my fair share of people that fit the saying "don't judge a book by its cover."
and not in a good way.
the youth these days know how to get away with things.
if it's appearance that helps people make their judgments...
then it's the appearance that the youth have to fake.
so many kids are corrupted now...
what... with... TV shows... wanting to live like celebrities, wanting to look like them... do what they do... and think that that is what's the "in" thing.
seeing other people on TV from other countries and thinking "wow. our country is just not modern enough. THAT country on tv shows what we really have to do and what's cool.
screw that.
you can think that... but don't make that a reality to you.
appearance doesn't matter in most situations.
try to set up a spy camera that goes around with a particular person for one day and see what they're really about when people aren't around.
people that they don't have to impress.

okay. that might have been a rougher topic to start the blog with...
but i thought of writing just a paragraph down to summarize it all.
apparently as i was typing, i felt so strongly, i had to say it all.

on another note:
the baby is home.
still no name.
all we know is it's gonna be Muhammad (something) Haqimie.
kot.

my brother's here too.
he arrived earlier this evening.
for some reason, Qystina has been acting up.
and she's really afraid of my brother.
kesian pakngah dia.
he came in the door and wanting to hug her.
he was so excited and went to hug her but then she ran away like she was in shock and scared.
along the way she ran into Qimi's moses basket, which rocked him a little but thankfully he didn't wake up.
apparently, my dad showed Qys a picture of her and my brother when she was younger...
and my brother's weird expression in the picture scared her.
before that she was just fine.
everytime the phone rang and my brother called she'd want to talk to pakngah.
or when she's playing with her toy phone we'd ask her who she's calling and she'd say "pakngah!"
and my brother bought her a cute sheep-shaped pillow.
i want it!
when my brother told me to pass it to her and tell her that pakngah gave it..
she started to cry.
cos she heard the word "pakngah".
haish.
strange little girl.
strange. and and a scaredy cat.

<3 suryani

happy news :)

i'm here for a special occasion! :D

my sister has finally given birth to her second child, my first nephew!!!

the name hasn't been confirmed yet.
weight is 3.48kg.
a little bit heavier than qystina was.
gooD!
which means qystina's just naturally big.
hahaha...

anyway...
we'll be visiting her later this afternoon.
and i'll update with pictures k!

*****UPDATE*****

1:40pm Ireland Time







name hasn't been finalized. haha.

<3 suryani

what's in your head?

haish.

i never get to update on the day itself.
because i'm too lazy to upload the pictures right away.

anyway,
my dad made apam balik yesterday...
the one that i tried to do during hari raya, if i'm not mistaken, last year.
the one where the first batch turned out kind of okay just had to stay on the stove longer.. and the second batch stuck onto the pan like dirty-sidewalk-gum on the bottom of your shoe.
but my dad's turned out perrrrrrrrrfect!
which means now i know exactly what i did wrong...
and i can make them next year!!!
yay! :D





aside from that,
life's been pretty boring lately.
there's kind of no difference between living in Adelaide and living here.
only in Adelaide i can go out whenever i feel like it and walk anywhere.
here.. there's all the complications of having to walk in the ICE COLD weather and having to take public transportation (which, btw, i do NOT know how to take)
or having to wait for my sister to decide to go out and to have her husband agree to go out too cos he usually drives the car.

sigh.
so yea, we went out today after being trapped inside for too long.
went out to dundrum to bring my parents see where ana worked.
and i did a little shopping.
puas hati la sikit. i got a couple of things from Bershka and Zara.

waiting for Boxing Day je ni

<3 suryani

it's that happy feeling~

welllllll
helllllooooooooooooowwww!!!

i've been meaning to update with a blog about Hari Raya Haji...
but the house has been so busy and chaotic lately since my parents arrived.
and with qystina screaming around...

anyway...
we had our open house here...and invited a few families.
i helped my dad make his infamous Laksam and Nasi Kerabu.
since we didn't have the ingredients to make the blue rice...we made it yellow.
it was still good.


that laksam was actually made from scratch okay!!


kak fida made this delicious chocolate cake for us :D


qystina's baju kurung was soooooooooooo pretty!!! but a little tight around the tummy. hahaha. qystina's got a "peyut mok mok" as she calls it. hahaha.


this is qystina, husayn, and ameera. their family was the first one to come since kak nana was really craving for my dad's laksam and nasi kerabu. comel gile tgk tiga org ni!


qystina dah pandai posing dah skang... she's posed in so many pictures but i can only put up a few. nanti ter-over la plak kan...



and one more picture:


comel gile kan?!!!!!
she salam-ed everyone and even stayed in the position to pose for the camera!!
and of course we cheered her on so that she would...
then she started cheering herself on and clapping everytime she does it.
hahaha.

it was a pretty tiring day.
but it felt so wonderful.
much better than the feeling of Hari Raya Aidilfitri in Adelaide recently.
it felt more...RAYA-like. :p

<3 suryani

a wonderful world.

hellllooooowwww peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeee...~
i like to eat eat eat apples and bananassssss...
i like to eat eat eat apples and bananasssssssss...

qystina's cd of children's songs is stuck in my head.
the same songs are played everytime we get into the car.
something to do with eating apples and bananas...
something to do with "what a big surpiseeee!!"
itsy bitsy spider...
and the one about ants marching.
aiyayayayaaaaa~

anyway, yesterday was Ameera Harith's 6th birthday
and her mom hired a fairy princess for an hour to entertain them.



that's the bday girl and her bday cake.



that's the fairy princess. do not ask me ANYTHING. yes, i know she doesn't even look like one, except for her dress. and that doesn't even fit her!



there's that little girl... my little niece...yang sgt nakal.





the bday girls' mom baked these and decorated them all by herself! lawa gile!



dengan muke mengantuk... die still nak main2



the last time i saw this little girl, Alani, she was still a baby. now she's about the same age as qys kot but her head's full of beautiful volumnous hair!!



here's another naughty little girl. naira putri. as qys calls her ... putti. haha.

on another note:
we're preparing for Hari Raya Aidiladha.
as i've mentioned before, the first time in foreverrrrrrrrrr that i'm celebrating it with my family! (minus my brother).
i'm helping my dad make laksam and nasi kerabu!!!
will update with pictures! :)

til then...
selamat hari raya aidiladha to everyone :)

<3 suryani

light up, light up.

nothing much to update on.
it's the same everyday.

only qystina's getting much more used to me.
when i'm not there... she's always asking "mane acu?"
and she's hugging me more..
letting me put her diaper on for her..

the christmas decorations here are so beautiful.
i mean.. i finally saw the ones they put up in adelaide...
but it just isn't the same without the winter feeling.
christmas in summer is weird for me.
never got used to it, probably never will.
it's really really cold now.
almost everyday's been ICY cold.

can't wait for boxing day.
haha... it's gonna be kerayyyyyyyyyyyyyzie!!~
although this time i won't try to get that tax-back thing for everything.
that woman at the airport gave me such a hard time with the forms last year.
and i'm afraid to do it again now.
maybe just a few.
since i need the money.
hehe.

my parents are arriving soon.
this weekend.
my first raya... okay.. raya haji... with the family.
the last time we spent raya aidilfitri as a family was in 2006 when qys was born.
now we're celebrating raya aidiladha together.
the last time we did that.. was ... in 1999?
lol...

i'll end with this picture.



<3 suryani

it's just not the same, it's not.

sorry that i haven't updated lately,
but i've been layan-ing this little kid so much that at my extra time,
i have other stuff to update.
then when i want to update this blog,
there'd be someone here with me...someone who i don't want them to know about the existence of this blog.
nanti hari-hari dia datang and i won't be able to talk about the stuff that i usually talk about here.

so qystina.
she's such a big girl now...
she talks so much...
sometimes things that we don't even understand.
like.. just now for example.
she was saying something.. she wanted something...
all we understood was "qystina nak..."
then the rest of it just became baby talk.
haha.
sometimes...i feel bad for her.
i mean, think about it.
what if you were in her place?
you wanted something.. and people were misinterpreting whatever you were saying?
or sometimes they'll make a weird face, like they don't understand.
which was what i did to qys.
she was repeating it over and over, and i just started to think about this.
kadang2 rase kesian jugak kt dia ni...

she's starting to become used to having me around.
before this she wouldn't want me to carry her..
she wouldn't sit around and play around the room with me.
but now most of the time i hear her say "mane acu??"
i thought... what if i left in january.. and she asked that question?
kesian jugak kat budak2 ni kan?
they don't understand what's happening around them.
one minute they're calling someone their acu and running to the my bedroom to find me
and the next they run to the bedroom and find it's empty...
and then they cry.

then it's gonna take another whole year to see her again...
and it's gonna take just the same amount of time for her to get used to me again.
maybe even longer cos she'd be bigger...
and more malu with strangers.

i felt the baby move.
everytime he hears his sister's voice shouting..
that high-pitched voice,
he'd start kicking around.
there's this hard(er) part of my sister's tummy.
she says that's the baby's bum. Hahaha...
can't wait for him to come :)

in the meanwhile...







she let me kiss her and stayed in the pose for the picture. :)
and that's the sweater that i bought her :D
she really loves it! :p

<3 suryani

why me...?

im in ireland.
i have landed.
its about 12am here...

i had such a hectic day.
i hate...i repeat.. i HATE the frankfurt airport.
people aren't helpful at all.
no information desk.
and the screen displaying all the departure gates doesn't show the right info.
which allowed me to wound up waiting for the gate number to appear 45 mins before departure time.
when i finally went up to the security check person, they said it was in that area.
so when i go in, they say there's a gate all ready for my flight.
but why it didn't appear on the screen, i don't know.

i lost my ring...
i felt like i wanted to cry.
who the hell would want a ring that has an engraving of someone else's name on it?!
if it's a common name, sure.
but this.. ugh!!!!!!!!!!!
i took a picture of the stupid ugly bathroom that looks like a prison.
and in that picture was the last time i ever saw my ring.
my finger feels naked without it okay.
yea, it might sound a little wrong.
but i've gotten used to that ring.
it feels like i bring my B with me wherever i go, ya kno what i mean?

then, when i arrived at the dublin airport...
my bag didn't come out of the belt.
or whatever they call that thing where the bags come out of.
i was the only one left.. and that thing was spinning around...
and all i hear is the small buzz of the belt running...
i went to the aer lingus baggage service or whatever...
filled out a form and whatnot...
then while she was updating the information on her system,
a guy came along from farrrrrrrrr away from my original belt.. dragging my pink bag.
it looked awkward. the bag a little tilted to one side and not rolling so well on its wheels.
turned out... all the handles were broken.
meaning my name tag disappeared, leaving the bag with no name, just a number.
the thing that we pull the bag with was broken too...
and the wheels.. broken.
i felt relieved to have my bag.
but i felt so depressed at that time.
everything has gone wrong.
nothing had gone right.

nasib baik customs tak tahan my bag
it would've just added to my run of bad luck.

then now im at my sister's house...
where my laptop wouldn't connect to the internet.
it actually connected to the wireless connection that my sister has on...
but i can't seem to get onto the internet.
fudgeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i have all the pictures of me and qystina in my laptop...
so i won't be updating any soon.
maybe i'll wait for my dad to get here in 2 weeks time
or pray that by some miracle my laptop will repair itself and have some pity on me.

this sucks big time.
the only thing that has probably went right is that ...
well.. i went to ana's house
where her boyfriend cooked for us.
really delicious nasi ayam
but that's pretty much it.
i wouldn't really call that luck.

let's just hope things take a turn for the better soon :(

<3 suryani

jitters.

so, i am in preparation to leave for ireland...
and haish...
susah hati betul!
my bag is approximately 25++ kg so far.
trying to take things out...
but i don't know what to take out..
most of the weight is food that my sister kirim!

i have yet to put in my last minute things.

aside from that,
im really hungry.
but i'm too nervous to eat.
nervous for my bag.
for customs.
for EVERYTHING!
oh.. why must ireland be so far away!~

oh well..
let's just hope that my bag will pass through without having to take anything out..
and hopefully they can check it in directly to ireland so that i don't have to fetch it and check it in again in frankfurt.

<3 suryani

i dreamed i was missing.

so, everyday's been raining now...
my uncle won't arrive from kelantan til saturday cos it's flooded there.
it's the monsoon season.
i remember back then when i used to ... play around in the ... dirty flood water.
lol...

so yesterday i finally went to the pavilion!!!!
yay for me!
it's such a great place!!!
best gile!!!
i wish i cud go everyday and make it my usual hang out spot.
lol...
i went to watch the movie Wayang yesterday...
i loveeee the seats in the pavilion!
i love the big space for ur legs!
the movie was okay.
wasn't that great.
my b and i made a little laugh out of a few things said.
and plus... the cinema wasn't that full.
so it felt comfortable.

then we went to watch Selamat Pagi Cinta today at time square.
right before i sent my b off to Kajang where his parents would pick him up to go to Johor.
mase ni la die nak cari keje.. nak gi jlan2 jumpe adik die... bile kite dah takde kat mesia nanti... time tu la die xde pape nak buat...
i liked the movie a little.
it wasn't that great...
the storyline moved a little too fast for me...
could've been better.
pierre andre, fazura, que haidar and that girl who played in sepet.
the one that sounds so gedik and a little menyampah when she talks.
then we went to Jalan Tar to buy a couple of things for my sister.
where i ran into my brother's girlfriend of 12 years.

shoutout: happy belated 12th anniversay on November 20, 2008 to my brother and his girlfriend!!!
really respect the both of u for hanging on for that long..
looking forward to what's planned for next year..
hint, hint!

kind of embarassing.
she was the one who saw me first.
i suppose she's gonna tell my brother soon..
and tell him who i was with..
habis la kene lecture pas ni...

then we went to kajang... and ate satay kajang at hj samsuri :)
yum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
although it took a little arguing between the two of us on how to get there from star hill...
we finally found the way.
my b.. he's terrible at directions!
even misunderstanding the signboards.
yes. misunderstand. not misread.
that means... the signboard says to take a certain road we must take left.
so when i take left... there's a little path off of to the right..
and he says i must take that.
so i take it...
turns out we just turned back to where we started.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
a little annoyed in the beginning..
but once the road was found..
everything was alright.

on the way back home i was sooooooooooooooooooooooo sleepy.
not a little sleepy.
but a lot sleepy!!
the kind where i actually can't hold my eye lids open any longer!!
so i turned the music volume up to its highest
looking like a dork, i sang to the music too.
hahaha...and opened the window.
since the cold air from the air conditioning made my eyes pedih.
finally arriving home...thought i'd go to sleep.
turns out... i went to watch a movie on my laptop.
haaaaa...
then my brother's girlfriend came over to give me his jacket and whatnot that i have to bring to ireland...

banyak gile barang okay!!!
i don't know how i can bring everything with me!!!!!!!!!!!
it's a winter jacket. so duh. it's very heavy.

sigh.
byk sgt kene fikir utk pegi ireland ni okay.
dah la tgh fikir... nak transit.
first time transit kt frankfurt ni.
scared okay.
scared.
and nervous.
let's hope everything turns out for the better.

<3 suryani

one big happy family

i just got back from my maklong's house...
and i tell ya...
it was such a wonderful feeling being in that house.

everything seemed so chaotic.
so kecoh
so... LIVELY.

there was maklong, paklong, kaklong ipah and her daughter, kakngah azura and her husband abg iskandar with their...4 kids (i think.. too many kids to count), abg odie and his wife kak ira with their... 3-4 children...
i came with pakcik harris and his wife makcik wi with their 3 children...
the main plan was to just go to pakcik harris' house at kg baru...
but then i got lost and whatnot...
so it took a while to get there...
when i finally got there... my uncle said they were leaving for maklong's house because abg odie and his wife were going for umrah tomorrow.
so feeling guilty... at first not wanting to go ...
i had to say yes... that i didn't mind..
so i went.

and i'm actually happy i did go.
it's been a long time since i've been in that kind of environment.
it kind of made me feel sad that i wasn't here for raya.
it was great.
seriously...
so..noisy... kids running around everywhere..
my maklong being so kecoh...
talking non-stop...
radio without off button..
ade mee kari and they bought kfc's chicken barrel.
but too bad for me i was already full.
and sedih gile okay!
i didn't bring my camera!!!!!
i would've taken pictures!
keep the memories.
and... if i had time.. a book of cousin's children.

i was like.. counting the children.
trying to match the child to the parent.
had no idea when my cousin had this many children!
and to be honest... i don't think i matched the right kid to the right parent.
just three generations... dah ade byk camni...
and just from two of the eight siblings my mom has.
so imagine all of them together.
WOAH!

yea... that's basically all i wanted to say.
and going home, i didnt know that my maklong's house was so close to mine.
hahahah.
i'll definitely go back next year when i come back from ireland..
this time with my camera :)

<3 suryani

pour the sunshine.

well, it's the 16th of November...
and it's a special day for someone out thereeeeee....
*wink*wink*

HAPPY 20th BDAY KHAIRUNNISA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mesti happy sgt2 kan?
well, i've already seen some of the pictures on laila's blog...
and it looked like you guys had a really fun time :)
wishing you all the best in life,
semoga panjang umur dan dimurahkn rezeki :)

apart from that,
i basically haven't been doing much lately.
just counting down the days til i go to ireland...
the dreaded oh-teen-hours-of-flight to get there....
so many things that my sisters kirim...

so yea,
what else ....
kl has been raining every late afternoon...
it's nice i guess..
but it seems to get more humid after it rains...
is that possibleeeeE?????

gotta go to my aunt's house right after i write up this blog.
malas nye nak pegi.... but it seems like it's a must-do while i'm here in malaysia.
alright...
til then~

<3 suryani

make it count...

our ring:



*the most lebar smile that i can make*
it has a little engraving that says afani

something i miss the most since it closed in adelaide:



java chip frappucino~ slurrrrrpppp~

well, went to watch My Bestfriend's Girl in the cinemas at noon on wednesday...
realllllyyyyy miss midvalley!
i had sizzling chicken mushroom yee mee with egg at the food court...
FORTUNATELY for all of you reading this in adelaide... i did NOT take a picture of it. hahaha...
later that night i cooked ayam paprik....
my kitchen isn't as fun to cook in compared to the kitchen at the village. lol

my B left for his home today...
drove him to puduraya and lepak kejap for an hour....
the drive back home was TIRING
one of the downside of driving in msia: the traffic. awful. just awful
gahhhh....

lemme just leave this blog with a new picture.



<3 suryani

the romantic and the mishaps.

and it's monday ! :)
what does that mean, you may ask?
it means i've been here for almost 2 days :p

anyway..
yesterday we celebrate our first yr anniversary..
and to my surprise.. he gave me a ring!
with our combined name (a name developed from our names combined) inscribed on it ;)
he got one too... just mine's a little big.. so i might wear it as a necklace :D
and he brought me to secret recipe.
tihihi.
at first i didnt realize he wanted to go to secret recipe to celebrate it...
i thought he was just craving for the food there.
but later on.. he actually said.. it's our anniversary.. he wanted it to be special ;)

then later i went to my aunt's house..
where.. coincidentally.. it was her bday!!!
i bought her a cake... and a gift from aussie..
she was very the terharu one...
then her daughter told me they were making a surprise bday party at NILAI!
i told her i wasnt joining..
but i dont know what happened...
suddenly i became part of the plan to get to the venue...
dah la my hair serabai and nmpk serabut gile from kene hujan..and SWEATING!!!
msia TOO hot okay!
i got a nosebleed just because of the hot weather!!
dah lame x dapat nosebleed..
i dont even know if i've ever gotten one...
*scratching chin*

so yea.. went to dinner..
byk gile makanan...
and after eating at secret recipe.. i was kinda fulL!
so couldn't take in much...
then we went to a funfair..
which i again.. got stuck into going...
i donno how...
tak naik any rides pon.... then sent a few of them home in my car...
and balek.
and... nasib baik... dkat ngn rumah makcik jee...
kete masuk longkang!!!
huhuhu.. GILE LAH!
i tried to do my awesome u-turn without a reverse...
unfortunately... i did not see the gutter there.
nasib baik tayar dpn belah kanan je yg masuk!!!
and nasib baik my cousin's bf was outside and came to my rescue!!
malu gile okay!!!
but oh well...

on the way back...
tried getting myself used to driving faster...
after having to go at a limit of 60km/hr in aussie..
it was a blast...
but.. i was kinda on the edge of losing control of the car?
hahaha...
masuk lubang tu .. masuk lubang ni..
tak tengok jalan... masuk lane orang lain
nasib baik x byk kete...

well, those are the mishaps of my day today people.
and the oh-so-romantic-day i've ever had :)
now im home..really tired.
going to sleep!

<3 suryani

home sweet home :)

yay. i've finally arrived in malaysia!!

thanks pojik,laila, khai, hazerq, mariah n ira for seeing me off :)

well, checking in... i couldn't get an aisle seat nor a window seat...
something wrong with the system...
so the lady told me to go to this other counter...
i guess the other counter had a lady called Leah.. which was probably the manager ke apetah...
but....omg.
so sombong ok!!!!
they were busy putting in a bunch of chinese people who couldn't speak english into the system..
and i was just waiting there for them to ask me or at least to say "hold on a moment..."
but that Leah didn't even take a glance at me..
and said to this other lady..."i don't even know what they're here for..."
TANYE LA BENGONG!!!!
gawd.
anyway.. i got an aisle seat...but allll the way in the back!!~
the actual last row.
but that whole row was empty.
then they had me move to the row infront of me which was also empty.

i ate their beef rendang.
i ate the snack they gave...which was like.. a chicken caesar sandwich..
lame observe sandwich tu ... nak tgk camne dorang buat.. so boleh buat sendiri!
then the one time i went to the bathroom...
when i came back... something was happening in the row behind me.
the air host was holding a chinese guy lying down.
i didn't understand at first...
but at last i found out that he was actually having mental problems.
he becomes violent at times... that's why people had to hold him down..
takot seyhhh.... i was just right infront of him.

my bag came out early!
it was like.. the 5th bag to come out?
best gile!
went to change some money...
and met up with this lady...
might've been a really long time since she's been to the airport.
she didn't know how to take the carts out frm the stack...
she didn't know how to look for ur carousel number...which was shown on the tv.
lol.
she was like.. "what technologyyyy"... hahaha...

went to eat kfc.
but i wasn't hungry!!! so i ate the coleslaw... and drank milo ais.
but this is for laila:



then took the klia express.
but.. before that...
hihihi.
i got this:







my first rose ever!!! :D
thank u b :)
(no thanks to ruining the moment.. sheesh)
now i'm just home.. settling down.

will update more.

til then...

toodles :)

<3 suryani

the day has come!

so, the day has finally come.
i'm finally leaving for msia tomorrow!!!
or should i say... today :D
it's already 3.09am...
i've just finished packing my stuff...
excluding the last minute stuff... toiletries and such.
lets hope it stays under 25kg.

handed in my black book for cultures, histories and the designed environment class yesterday.
had to submit it into the early submission box.
but ... right after that... i realized that i forgot to put pictures of my assignments..
of my models.
crap.
i hope i pass.

then went to do a little bit of shopping.
and .. omg!
so sad :(
the one thing that i bought for my bf for our anniversary..
cant arrive on time :(
so i asked laila to send it to me once it gets here...

but apart from that...
all's good.
was in the middle of packing til acis buzzed me on yahoo messenger.
ajak kuar gi mkn la plak kan...
i'm telling u... this guy does not worry one bit about his exams..
or.. if he does.. he sure doesn't show it!
we eventually decided to go to hungry jacks, along with din and laila.
ramai gile! packed gile hungry jacks!
i mean.. yea.. it's a friday night.. but what are ppl doing at hungry jacks?!!!

well, when i got home i re-packed.
took everything out and put it back in...
was trying to figure out what was NOT necessary.
eventually took out.. ONE piece of clothing.
lol.
they should make bigger bags...
and a heavier limit for bag weights.

anyway.
just finishing off with checking around my room.. that's still so messy.
lol.
til 2moro.
will update with YUMMY food pictures :D

i wanna say good luck to everyone sitting for exams starting 2moro :)
particularly my housemates~
dont sweat it...
i'm sure u'll do fine ;)
see you all in msia :)

<3 suryani

the little voice in my head.

actually. it's not all in my head.
and it's not so little.
very high-pitched. kinda like shrieking.
sitting next to me. on my left. at this very moment.

LAILA STOP TELLING ME TO START MY ASSIGNMENT AT 12 midnight!!!!

:( im trying to start my assignment.
i said i'll start my essay at 11.
supposedly laila heard me say 12.
now im trying to start.
but she keeps on telling me 12!!!!

a friend in need, is a friend in deed. muahahaha.

so ... i would like to half thank laila.. and half cekik laila.

<3 suryani

happy days.

currently:
watching The Swan Princess 1994 Disney Animated Movie
don't laugh.
it's a classic. prince derrick is my husband okay.
>_o

i've been meaning to update my blog.
but i've been so busy with assignments lately.
i'm done with my digital media's final assignment; the animation, the cd label, and the dvd covers with insert.
now i'm just trying to finish up my digital composition for my Cultures, Histories, and Designed Environment subject... start my 1000-word essay and finish that by tonight (with help from a little miracle possibly?) , and build my physical model tomorrow hopefully.

but now i just need to start off my "hard-working night" with a little push from one of my favorite animated movie.
i've been going to uni everyday for a week now.
i even stayed til 5am last nite.
phew~
thanks to laila for being able to teman me.
kalau tidak, tak pegi kot uni.

anyway, wanted to post this up:
the other day, laila and i were chillin in the kitchen...
and i was telling this story about my dad...and his random question.
then laila suddenly wanted to sing the "selamat pengantin baru" song...
u know.. selamat.. pengantin baru... semoga.. ke anak cucu.. bahagia...
or something like that.
it's a classic song for a wedding.
BUTTTT!!! one thing... yang kelakar gileeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
she sang it to the tune of a raya song.
the song that goes something like this:
selamat hari raya.. kepada saudara serta saudari. and so on.
LAWAK gile okay! i wish we could play it out again and record it to put it into this blog so you'd understand better...but sadly i didn't know that was coming. haha

okay. enough with this.
tadi... ada this bangla guy yg nak "ngorat" kitorg. supposedly, he made a bet with his other bangla friend that we were malaysians.
his friend thought we were indonesians.
then he just kept on asking what we were doing here, who we stayed with and all that stuff.
he walked next to laila... so i decided to let laila handle this.
hahaha.
and... let me tell you... while i was silent on the side...
i wanted to laugh my head off listening to laila laughing at what the guy was saying.
it actually sounded like she was into everything he said.
LMAO!!! funneeeeehhhhh, okay~
and yes, laila and i are now sisters. ahahaha

umm.. besides that...
I HAVE 6 DAYS LEFT TIL I GO BACK TO MALAYSIA!
YAHOoooooooooooooooo!!

i cannot wait!
i'm so psyched!!!!

til then, readers,
i have to just get my assignment submissions on monday,
and have my presentation done on tuesday,
and everything is OVER for me...

wooHoo!

<3 suryani

just for the moment.

and again...
my nights consists of going to uni at around 5 or 6pm and staying til late.
but yesterday laila and i only stayed til 12 seeing as how we both have to be at uni in the morn today~

i've got a lecture at 1.
but i recently checked my email and we can have consultation sessions if we want today...from 9-12pm.
it's 10am now -- i'llbe leaving soon.
knowing how my lecturer likes to go on and on and on about a particular subject.
last lecture, he talked about ONE BOOK for about half an hour.
but he stayed on that same slide for about an hour.
which meant we had to go overtime into our next lecture session.
*rolls eyes*

anyway,
while i was at uni last night i had a good chat with leandro.
it's good to finally be able to chat with him instead of just sending messages or comments on myspace.
in a best-friends-way, we're kind of each other's better halves.
he understands me, and i understand him.
and we balance each other out, him being his goofy self and mean to other people,
while i'm mean to him, but i can talk him into being nice to others.
and i feel useless when i can't help him with his problems when i'm all the way out here in australia.
ridiculous okay! a book that costs 137 US dollars!!!
a math book at that!!!
sheesh...
what is the world coming to...
haha.

well, i'm almost done with my digital media part of assignments.
which is good i guess...
but seeing as how i have an essay, another digital composition, and a physical model to build, all before monday....
i should be panicking.
which i will...
on sunday.
when i still haven't started my model.

well, i should be going to uni now.
toodles people. ;)
ttyl --

<3 suryani

going crazy.

ape nak jadi... ape nak jadi.. sampai sekarang x kawennnn lagiiiii

okay. soooo off topic.
at the moment, i'm in the architecture computer lab with laila.
the point of coming?
to finish up my assignment so that i can concentrate on my other subject's assignment.
but i'm out of ideas of how much better my animation could be.
i try not to lie to myself...
yea... the animation is pretty crappy.
but hey, as long as i pass right?

ni laila punye pasal la ni.
she made me write this blog.
hahaha.
i was happily "working"...
she made me go read her blog and was contemplating whether to update my own or not.
laila suruh update!!!
okay. let's stop talking about laila.asyek psl dieeee je...

last friday night we all went to see the rundle lantern by hungry jacks.
the opening act was awesome gileeeeeee
here are some pictures of the estimated 2 billion australian dollars lantern thing the city of adelaide spent on.











we celebrated bontot's birthday saturday night.
laila and i spent most our night at the architecture comp lab til we had to go to bontot's house to "surprise" him.
and we were at the lab last night too!
it actually feels nice to spend my time here...
only at night .. and if there aren't a lot of people.
it's really quiet. easier for me to concentrate on my work.
....
but don't take now as an example.
now i'm just out of ideas.
after i've used all of them up.
my brain just can't make up anymore creative thoughts.

anyway, it's 11 more days to go!! :D
malaysiaaaaaaaaaaaa!!
i seriously can't wait.
but now i'm just worried for my assignments and my messy room which needs to be cleaned before i leave.
in addition to that, there's my sister merajuk-ing because i told her i don't want to stay in ireland for more than a month.
either i leave before new year... or i don't go at all.
and she actually told me to not come!!
she probably expects me give in or something.
oh well.
her loss.
and mine too. but since i don't think i have to sacrifice my new year EVERY frickin year, it's just gonna be her loss this time.

aaaaa...
mmmm...
i should get to my assignment now.
but..................

zzzzzzzZZzzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzzzzz...

ooo. wait. there's one more thing.
i did something to someone... that i felt really bad about.
but i couldn't stop myself from doing it.
because... taktauuuuuu.
dia sgt blur dan sgt....tahhhhhhh... mcm SELAMBLURRRRRR punya org.
it makes me really easy to get mad.
mmm.. no use lah talking about it here.
okay.
FULL STOP!

<3 suryani

not so shocking news.

there are so few people that i can count on in my life.

there. that's what's been on my mind lately.
aside from missing my best friends.

christine: last time i visited, we were't even able to spend that much time together. i feel like i've been missing out on your life lately :(

arielle: my poking buddy. although we poke each other everyday on fb, doesn't mean that we update on each others' activities daily too. unlike christine, i know ur online sometimes. i miss ur jokes (as lame as they are.. they still make me laugh)... i miss u being my tour guide. i miss spending time with u. i remember the last time we hung out, u brought me to soho. u kno my shopping habits ;p

leandro: u've been there so much for me lately. u make me smile most :) i miss ur goofy-ness. u understand me the most too. which is pretty shocking as far as guys go in understanding women. i still keep the 8th grade picture of u from our senior trip. the year we acknowledged each others' existence. i miss u. u said u were saving up the money!!! so when's ur arrival ?!!!

these 3 people are the closest people i have in my life, besides my family of course.
but you all know how that goes.
i confide more in my best friends.
and worst of all, all 3 are hard to reach.
all in the states.
and i'll never know when the next time will be that we can get together.

i know u guys are reading this.
all i can say is... u don't know how much u guys mean to me right now.
amidst all the drama in my life and the hectic schedule of assignment submissions.

i really miss u.

aside from that:-
today.. or .. actually yesterday, october 17th, was my sister's 29th bday!!!!
happy bday kaklong!!!!!!!!!!!
what i can say for this woman is that she's the closest thing to a sisterly bonding that i have.
and my family knows how hard it is for me to bond with them.
she's such a patient person. so calm. so understanding.
i don't know how she holds it all in.
but with that, she's been repaid in happiness.

today...october 18th!!! is my niece's 2nd bday!!!!!!!!!
happy bday qystina nur athirah!!!
u comel comel little bubbly girl.
she's no stranger in this blog, as i put so many pictures of her in previous entries.
i still remember the time my sister had to rush to the hospital.
twice.
and i still remember having to wait in the lobby for hours on end cos i couldn't go in.
tgh tido mlm2... tetibe kene kejut... kene rush pegi spital...
i was so eager to hold her!
i know that i can never be there for any of her birthdays...
seeing as how we're so far away from each other.
that makes me sad... cos i want to be the one that she confides in...
the aunt that she trusts.. when she's older. hehe.
tapi xpe... acu ade beli banyakkkk barang utk qys!!!!

lesson learned today: nothing is as it seems. so don't assume unless u've got proof. never get close, unless u've got ur guard on.ow. i tell u what... ow...

<3 suryani

(no) more drama in our life.

haven't been updating lately due to ...
well.. i don't really know the word that describes it best.
so why don't i just tell u guys what's been happening lately?

went to harbortown on saturday with laila.
finished up the last of our shopping :D.. hint hint. *if u kno what i mean*
went to glenelg and spent the rest of the day there.
it nice to be able to soak in the sun.
and observe the surroundings.
we sat right behind this old couple.
the makcik was very the gatal one.
selak2 seluar pakcik tu...isk....

then we went down to the water itself and took some pictures.









other than that,
life has been filled with drama the past few days.
of my own and of others.
i'm just trying to get through the final 25 days.
then MALAYSIA!
next week is my last week of lectures and studios.
then all i have to wait for is the final submissions on november 3rd.
i've also applied for a room move.
to a 2-bedroom apartment, which i hopefully will get.
and the thing that brought me down the most today was that i wanted to take an elective that takes me to Penang nxt year 2nd semester.
but the lecturer didn't tell us that they could only take on 25 students.
and now it's all filled up, unless there's a cancellation.
i hope there is.
i actually made my mind up a while ago, but was too busy to log into my uni webmail.
stupid me.

well. here's where it ends.
i really shud be continuing with my assignment now.
but i stopped halfway, since it's only a rough concept that i have to bring in 2moro.
so i should get some sleep.



<3 suryani

bright things, young things.

today was such a beautiful day.
the sun shining brightly.
wind wasn't too cold.

i went for my early 9am studio thinking that we were gonna learn the HARDER part of adobe premiere.
turns out... they only taught what i already know.
i left early after getting my assignment back.

i headed towards glenelg.
needed some down time.
some time for reflection.
the tram was packed!
as usual around this time of the year... kids going to the beach with their surf boards and whatnot.

i thought i deserved to cuci mata today.
and there was this really gud lookin guy.
probably a boy still.
budak2 omputeh kan smue nmpk tua than they actually are.
tapi tgk je la. xde lebih2. haha.

when i arrived at glenelg... it was such a wonderful view.
the ocean was so blue.
the beach was also packed.
but it was fun to watch them enjoying their time.
but sedih nye... our exams are close by
so people are just worrying about assignments and studying for those exms for now.
kan best kalau bleh pegi ramai2.

my camera's battery went dead.
so i headed home about half an hour later.
had lunch with laila at knoodle.
i had to walk through rundle mall to get there...
and lemme tell ya.. rase menyesal gile x charge bateri camera.
everything was so full of happiness and joy.

the RSPCA was there.
they set up a tent and everything.
so throughout the whole of rundle mall were people with donation tins and an animal by their side.
mostly dogs.
but there was one rabbit!!!
the one that caught my attention (and others' too) the most was one of those... snow wolf!!
like.. half wolf half dog.
it was HUGE!!!
so putih!!! and grey...
felt like i wanted to pet him.
tapi x boleh. :(

kesimpulan nye...
today was a great day.
just not for me.

<3 suryani

pen gel (language understood by few)

everything's been so hectic lately.
so update since the last time i blogged:

1. i sent in my assignment on time... although it wasnt the best... and i didn't get enough sleep....
i had about.. 2 hrs of sleep before going to work that night.

2. the next day i didnt get much sleep either... since i had to start cooking for the first day of raya.
it was a joined open house by PetSA and the other villagers...
i went to harbortown to get me some new stuff for raya...
ended up buying new shoes, 2 pairs of tights, perfume.. and a large pan for cooking the rendang.
started cooking after buka puasa.
i must admit... at first i like the idea of having a combined open house...
but realizing that there was so much work that was given to us...
agak menyesal la... finished cooking about 3 or 4 something in the morning...
and slept for a few hours... knowing that it'd be difficult for me to wake up to prepare for the open house itself.
so yea.. i was woken up about 15 mins before ppl came...
so i went down late.
i didnt wash my hair.
yes. kantoi. so after 1 something afterwards i went back to take a NICE, LONG shower..
to prepare for other open houses that we went to.

3. the other days weren't better.
the next day i had to wake up early to go shopping for groceries for the other open house... made by MASCA SA and UMNO SA...
then i was forced to go to an open house that i didn't really have the energy to go to..
had to drop off a few barang at the rosepark house before that.
later that night.. went back to that house to do the preparation.
slicing the onions, blending the dried chillies, goreng kacang2...etc.
got home at 1 if i'm not mistaken. in the morning.
then had to make the cornflake cookies that i was in charge of.
my fault for starting late...
but pardon me if i thought we had to buy the ingredients together...
wrapped that up about 4.30am...

4. the next day got the most sleep i've ever had. woke up kinda late... with still not enough sleep.
at around 7pm had to be at bradford lodge to start the cooking.
was kind of late.
so was everyone else.
had dinner with the acting high commissioner..
then started cooking about 10 something?
wrapped that up about 5 something in the morning.
i fell asleep for an hour after i finished my roti jala
my sleeping bag was really comfy.
then when i woke up .. we just got ready to leave.

5. slept for not enough hours still.
had to be at bradford by 10am.
had some cutting to do.
others were late.
so were we.
but who wouldn't be with a gap in between for a rest?
then left for the venue...with 2 trips.
lemme just say this...
SOMEONE ade kereta... tapi x guna.
hmmm... could it be maybe that they could've saved the several trips back to bradford?...
maybe...?
possibly.
but nevermind that since it's the past.

6. the MASCA/UMNO open house was a great success.
food disappeared fast.
thanks for everyone that came.. and everyone who made it a success..
even more thanks to the people who was HEAD of the organization.
worth the experience i guess...
but i need my sleep.

7. had the "raya" picnic today at the botanical garden. or should i say yesterday?
forgot that daylight savings started.
so woke up an hour later than planned.
it was great fun.
photos will be up soon :)
thanks to everyone who came ...

8. cant get much sleep. will try to now... i dont know.. i just needed to update my blog.
have an assignment due on tuesday.
i feel like it's due tomorrow... cos i have work 2moro night which doesnt really allow me much time.
dammit!

9. 33 more days.

<3 suryani

tit for tat.

note to self: change all my web songs to raya songs so we can make it feel more like suasana hari raya!

well, here i am sitting in my messy room.
with no sleep.
listening to raya songs.
and still not done with my assignment that's due at 2pm today.

why am i writing a blog when i should be doing it, you ask????

cos my grandma skips faster than the 3ds max program!
i'm waiting for my animation to render out.
and lemme see.... 5 minutes more to finish out the rendering.
but then another animation file to make right after that.
then another rendering, probably lasting for an hour -_-!!!

anyway,
on the brightside....
i got my acuan utk kuih loyang that was sent from malaysia!
and!
i got my first kad raya!!!
physical card.
probably the only one i'll get this year.
what a draggggggggggggggggggg!!

i need sleep!
but i cant!
cos i gotta go to uni right after i finish my renderings.
then i gotta go to work at 6pm!
then when i come back...
plan is to make a suasana hari raya scene in our kitchen.
lol.

ape niiiii!!!
i thought raya was all about celebration and happiness...
where's my time off?!

<3 suryani