it is killing me

I should have spent my time doing an assignment that's due in 2.5 weeks time...
so I can consult with my tutor tomorrow...
but I seemed to have gotten distracted by other matters... that aren't really important but it's a way to avoid doing work!

Well, I just wanted to write that I am extremely upset with the fact that this BREAK...
isn't really a break for me after all.
I've got 2 huge assignments due the week that we come back from break...
and so I've got to work on that in the first week of break.
As a matter of fact, I've got to finish it up by Friday night of the first week.
Which is basically next week! duh!

Why you may ask??
Cos my parents are coming the week after...
and of course I've got to spend time with them.
It's ridiculous how the school doesn't even keep in mind that there are international students who want to go to the graduation ceremony, hence having family over to the country.
And furthermore, the family will want to visit around Adelaide/South Australia...
but obviously, they have not thought that through.

I've got two full days from 9am to 5pm of "survey"....
doing god knows what.
Hence, two days NOT spent wisely with my parents.
Seriously lah, I'm very upset and feel like I should bring this up to the school or something,
but I don't know who and where.

Even though we're doing masters...
doesn't mean that we don't deserve a break.
Even in the lecture today... the dude was like...
"If you want some good books to read this break...." - and he went on to give the list...
As if we were planning on just spending time reading during the break.
Puh-leeeasse!

Yea, if we bring this issue up...
they'll be like ... "When you guys start working on a real job, you won't even get breaks."
..... but we friggin don't careee cooosss we are still friggin studyinnnnggg!!

yes,
that's all i have to say.
I should try to do something... to show tomorrow....
Maybe...
maybe.

P.S. Sorry about the last post. I'd like to know that I'm a good friend who's advice won't be taken for granted or dismissed just like that. I love to help out a friend in need... but I won't budge if I'm not asked... butttt which of course will hurt me knowing that they can't come to me for help :(

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don't fall in

I'm trying to save myself from hurting... well... myself.
These actions I make won't be appreciated that much...
or might not be listened to at all.
And in the end, I'm the one who will get sad, depressed, and maybe a little heartbroken.

Although some people may see me as an angry person, some may say scary, and others may think I'm just a bitch...
whatever it is, I try my best to be a good, loyal friend to those close to me.
However, sometimes I just have to back off where I know I may not be needed.
I should just mind my own beeswax and speak up when asked.

Yes, that's what I shall do from now on.
Maybe then I won't hurt as much when my feelings aren't considered :)

P.S. One of my best friend's birthday just passed... so, Happy Belated Birthday to Suji aka Christine. Although she most probably won't be reading this as I haven't been able to contact her latelyyyy. :(

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i flit, i float

I have just returned from a good day :)
I had my plaster model presentation today,
which went great.

Although, this morning was a little rushed for me.
I spoke too soon, babbling and bragging about not being late and not missing class and whatnot.
Well, I've been half an hour early or at least 15 mins early for each class...
but for today, the day of project submission AND presentation -
1. I woke up late.
2. Had to get ready in half an hour - which was successful but tres rushed.
3. I got to the bus stop on time, but the friggin bus was late.
4. Hence, I arrived to class 5 minutes past 10.

Yes, class technically starts 10 past...
but I am not one to arrive even a minute late cos I hate the attention and the head-turning when you arrive and walk in through the door.

And the bus driver had the heart to say that the bus behind her was late.
We arrived at the train station stop,
and there were too many people wanting to get on.
She actually said, "Obviously since this is happening..." -and by "this" she meant so many people waiting for the bus- "... there should be a bus right behind me. The bus behind me must be running late."

Whatevs,
at least I arrived to class as people were uploading their presentations on to the laptop.
It was still all good.

So, here's the model.
And I will also put up the picture that I soooooo wanted you to see! hahahaha...
I'm sorry if it's a little R-rated for you guys. haha




cut from foam.

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still can't believe

There’s this French phrase that I learned constantly in the 7 years of classes that I enrolled in...
but I've forgotten it.
and it means something like – crazy + off-the-wall – something like that lah.
and that’s exactly how I feel momentarily.

Today.. or maybe to be more precise I should say YESTERDAY, was Saturday.
a weekend… no?
weekend = rest… no?
NO. Apparently not for me, not this semester.
I woke up at a little past 8am to get ready to go to Uni before anyone else does and I’d have to wait in a LONG queue to use the foam cutter machine.
There are about 50 of us in this elective and only 2 foam cutter machines in the Architecture School. This does not even account for the rest of the stressed-out Archi students who might want to use it as well. Yes, apparently I pay so much and get so little.
Only when I arrived, the door was locked.
I suppose whoever closed the door (which will automatically lock once it closes) ignored the huge ass piece of paper that said “Please do not close door.”
Thankfully security was able to open it for us, and I got everything finished in 8 hours.
Yup, I, the newly-hardworking-archi student, stayed in Uni for 8 hours, on a weekend.

There is just no time for a break in between assignments, let alone procrastination, something of which I haven’t done AT ALL lately :)), hoorah for me~
There’s this constant cycle of working and never getting to rest.
But at least, I’m on track for this submission and I can get a good night’s sleep tonight and start a little bit later on the next task at hand tomorrow.

I've taken a few pictures, but haven't transferred it yet.
I will do so soon...
for I have something you will definitely like to see :p
or just some of you. hahahaha

So I'll leave this post here...
I shall get my beauty sleep now :))

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can't shake it.

i'm pretty surprised myself...
but you know what...?

i'm totally fine with how everything is right now. :D

may it be continuous.

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the keropok tales.

so Wednesday going to Thursday... I had skipped sleep for more than 30 hours.
yes, so ridiculous.
but I'm happy with the way my model turned out and the positive reaction i received..

and it turned out that the usual 10am-1pm and 2pm-5pm class on Thursday after the submission was mandatory.
we used to be able to just leave after a brief intro to our next assignment...
but apparently we needed those 6 hours to prepare for our next task.
my coursemate and I could barely keep our eyes open.

so, I'm pretty happy with the fact that we're already going into week 4.
this weekend is the very first weekend i get to actually relax.
except for the surprise fire alarm this morning... that had 4 fire trucks beeping towards The Village.

anyway, you must be wondering why the title right?
i don't really feel like wanting to stay at home much...
since i constantly have my mind wandering to the keropok ikan downstairs.
and of course... i snack on it constantly... which is very dangerrrrooouuussss considering they're small pieces and you never know how much you're really consuming.

enough about that.
talking about it just made me want it more.
hahahaa... reminder to self: don't goreng any more keropoks!

on another note:
here are some pictures of my model.
don't let the photos fool you... the model is pretty huge.
those surrounding walls are higher than 10m at a 1:20 scale.
it was pretty difficult to get it to uni... but around $10 worth of a cab ride helped.
kudos to Miss Ukelele for helping me stitch these pillows and curtains together, else i would've spent useless amount of hours making uglier ones.







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never be the same.

i have a feeling that this semester will go by so fast.
not just because i like the assignments we're given.
but because i will always have 2 models due every week...
one on monday and another on thursday.

when the monday task is assigned...we will get the next one.
it will be explained and described... then for the rest of the class we can do or go where ever we like.
so monday afternoon up to wednesday night.. i will have to focus on whatever is due on thursday morning.

on thursday morning, when we submit our assignment, we will be assigned the next task...
so from thursday afternoon to sunday night... i will spend my time focusing on whatever is due on monday.

and the cycle goes on.
and believe me... i most definitely will have to spend every free hour trying to finish up my models cos they take a long time!
and in between, i have work.
i partly feel sad, but partly feel grateful that time has been cut from work for me..
so that i can spend more time doing my assignment.
i remind myself that there's always next semester... so keep what's most important the priority as of right now.

i think i'm taking on too much...
more than i can handle.
so far i can handle it... but i might burst at any point.

my head was thumping terribly today.
i could hardly keep my eyelids opened.
and my feet hurt from too much speed walking.

in a way, i see this as a positive thing.
at least time flies by faster, and i don't have to miss home so much.

i will post one of the many images of my latest submission (this afternoon) at the end of this entry.
i truly love it...
and i truly love my d90 :))

the next assignment to come is soooo much more complicated.
since we have to take one of these many patterns that we achieved and make it into a built form.
but that will have to wait til thursday, cos i've got a final model to work on for thursday's submission.
and i still have a lot to do.

yes, no more 8++ hrs of sleep..
at least not for now anyway.



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don't call my name

i am verryyyy the tired.
spent last night working on my model...
more like cutting pieces of it...
progressing only a little bit...
because to cut these little pieces out are sooo difficult.
and it hurts my fingers.

i have much more to do.
but unfortunately i had to stop cos i only had 4 hours of sleep before i had to rise and shine for the MASCA SA Welcoming BBQ 2010.

the BBQ was tres tiring.
but i loveeeeddd getting the chance to eat sausages again.
hahaha.. even though these sausages are very the oily.
but it's okay, kan?, cos it only happens once in a while :p

when i got home i had a relaxing time resting in the living area for a while before i started my OTHER assignment...
due tomorrow.
and now i'm soooo tired.
i just can't wait to fall asleep.
and maybe have classes cancelled tomorrow :D

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the truth hurts

the start of this semester has been really good.
i don't want to jinx it by talking about it too much...
but that is all i will say.
and i hope that it continues to be filled with assignments i really am interested in.

i see myself more dedicated to the assignments.
for example, i spent 6 hours last night making the frame of a half sphere... which didn't turn out the way it should have.
so - complete waste of time, but still satisfied that i started early :)


note: this did not turn out as good as it looks.

i find that this year... or just the start...
has been really good to me.
even though classes are filled up to 5pm most of the time or i work til 5...
the positive attitude towards it is that time flies by so much faster for me.
i seriously did not realize how fast time was going til i noticed this is already Week 2 going on to 3.
weekends are filled with MASCA activities...
but that will only last for the first few weeks.
next thing i'll know it'll be winter break...
and one more semester left this year :D

on another note:
i am selling off my Olympus SP-510uz, complete with the cover bag, rechargeable batteries and its charger, tripod, 2gb Fujifilm XD picture card, usb cable and whatnot.
at a reasonable price of $450-500, which can be negotiated...

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crashing down.

today was a goooooood day.
where i felt so proud of myself,
that Masters of Architecture is the right path for me.

at first, i just thought it ridiculous for us to have to design and build a model/robot that can jump.
it's like - "what's this got to do with architecture???"
even as i was asking around for other people's insights, nobody really knew what to say because it's like i'm in a whole other course.
but turns out my model was just fine.

i came into class worrying about the materials i've used,
when i had a few glimpses of other people's model materials.
several had the same concept as mine, and looked much more better.
but in the end, my model won the Most Elegant title,
or at least i shared it with 2 other people.
yes, that meant my tutor liked it.

so next assignment sounds more like the artsy stuff i was doing back in LaGuardia High School in NYC.
and i'm excited for it...
but as for now, I've got to concentrate on my next model-making assignment that's due on Thursday...
which, of course, i have not started.
when i know I won't have much time tomorrow, seeing as how i'm working after class, i'm still procrastinating.
i know i've got this assignment due and i need lots of time on it so i won't have to stay up all night.
however, my mind has randomly chosen for me to concentrate on other works.
like this blog.

i can feel my mind pushing myself towards the edge of a cliff...
trying to balance, preventing from a deathly fall.

it doesn't seem i have learnt my lesson.

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