falling apart.

can i just drop down, and cry my heart out?

<3 suryani

we can't all be happy

i pray for something to lighten up my dark space.
but all i get is ignorance and getting left behind.

i'm not sure why i've been so sensitive lately,
more towards specific people.
i won't say who,
but if i have this feeling, it means something bad.
and all it does is bring me spiraling down a great depression.

<3 suryani

no place to run

at times my mind drifts off and i wander endlessly about the person that i am.

i'm a bitch,
yet i unknowingly let people step on me like i'm a piece of shit.
i'm trying to do something nice,
yet no one seems to care and gets angry at me instead.

i have friends,
yet still i have no shoulder to cry on at troubled times.

where do i stand in this world that is seemingly very cruel?

<3 suryani

just a little more.

2 weeks gone by just with the click of my fingers.

i will surely miss all the practices for Malaysian Carnival...
even though it made me fall behind in my sleep.
i'm glad to be able to say that it was all worth it because the performances were so awesomely carried out by my performers :))

now i've got one week of an intensive course to go through with a famous Malaysian architect, Hijjas Kasturi.
and i can get my much-needed one whole day of sleep and then maybe go on a road trip for the remaining two-week mid semester break :)

so much has happened in these few coming weeks leading up to the Malaysian Carnival.
i'm thankful for everyone and anyone that has been patient with me and my time.
and i'm sorry if it's caused anyone any inconvenience.

Selamat Hari Raya dan Maaf Zahir Batin.


all the organisers and crews for Malaysian Carnival 2010

<3 suryani

it's about time.

i wouldn't know where to start.

the days breezed by like a calm storm,
me unable to realize that time has already come closer to the big event.
which, unfortunately, means more assignments to finish up the week before (which i am now struggling to stay up and do my best)
and also means i need to manage my time wisely.

in between the days that i last posted and this very moment,
so much has happened,
so many stories to remember, so little space left in my head.

believe me, i'd love to listen and help out like i would usually do,
but recently, i've been super busy, i don't even have time for myself nor my B. :(

here's hoping for a good next-three-weeks!

cheers,
<3 suryani