wouldn't be our honor?

undoubtedly, some people here very much make it obvious of what's more important to them.
i really wish summer didn't have to end.
i got to be friends with those i've never been that close to before.
but at the same time, i wanted summer to end,
to show me the pain-staked truth.

i know i shouldn't be making a big deal out of it,
but as i've mentioned so many times before,
good friends are hard to come by.
especially for me.

i haven't always been this social person you see in me now.
i've only recently discovered this ability.
ive traveled from country to country, school to school...
knowing quite possibly that i won't be seeing most of my friends again.
or they would forget me.
so it's not surprise that i take friendship to the heart.

since uni's started,
i've been feeling quite... alone.
more like, the odd one out.
work is what keeps me going.
at first, i thought, could it be because i've been here for so long
and most of the people that arrived the same year have already left?

but, wait a minute, i was never that close with the rest of them anyway.
sure, i'd see them from time to time,
sit with them at lunch sometimes,
go on outings with them.
so what makes it different this time around?

even worse, there are so many things in me that i can never let out.
that i can only keep to myself.
so what do i do...?

i've been feeling a little depressed.
a little upset.
a little alone.

should i see a therapist?? -__-"

<3 suryani