life's a rollercoaster

I tell myself to not ask questions that I don't have the right to know answers to.
It's hard to.. but I just have to.

I get nauseous.
I feel really depressed.

<3 suryani

realization

i catch myself spacing out a lot recently.
thinking of what was, what might've.. what could've been.

i really thought this was it.
but silly me for thinking i was worth it.

valentine's day is coming soon. i hope i don't realize the day it does, cos i just do not want to feel more lonely that i already am.

<3 suryani