it is killing me

I should have spent my time doing an assignment that's due in 2.5 weeks time...
so I can consult with my tutor tomorrow...
but I seemed to have gotten distracted by other matters... that aren't really important but it's a way to avoid doing work!

Well, I just wanted to write that I am extremely upset with the fact that this BREAK...
isn't really a break for me after all.
I've got 2 huge assignments due the week that we come back from break...
and so I've got to work on that in the first week of break.
As a matter of fact, I've got to finish it up by Friday night of the first week.
Which is basically next week! duh!

Why you may ask??
Cos my parents are coming the week after...
and of course I've got to spend time with them.
It's ridiculous how the school doesn't even keep in mind that there are international students who want to go to the graduation ceremony, hence having family over to the country.
And furthermore, the family will want to visit around Adelaide/South Australia...
but obviously, they have not thought that through.

I've got two full days from 9am to 5pm of "survey"....
doing god knows what.
Hence, two days NOT spent wisely with my parents.
Seriously lah, I'm very upset and feel like I should bring this up to the school or something,
but I don't know who and where.

Even though we're doing masters...
doesn't mean that we don't deserve a break.
Even in the lecture today... the dude was like...
"If you want some good books to read this break...." - and he went on to give the list...
As if we were planning on just spending time reading during the break.
Puh-leeeasse!

Yea, if we bring this issue up...
they'll be like ... "When you guys start working on a real job, you won't even get breaks."
..... but we friggin don't careee cooosss we are still friggin studyinnnnggg!!

yes,
that's all i have to say.
I should try to do something... to show tomorrow....
Maybe...
maybe.

P.S. Sorry about the last post. I'd like to know that I'm a good friend who's advice won't be taken for granted or dismissed just like that. I love to help out a friend in need... but I won't budge if I'm not asked... butttt which of course will hurt me knowing that they can't come to me for help :(

<3 suryani

don't fall in

I'm trying to save myself from hurting... well... myself.
These actions I make won't be appreciated that much...
or might not be listened to at all.
And in the end, I'm the one who will get sad, depressed, and maybe a little heartbroken.

Although some people may see me as an angry person, some may say scary, and others may think I'm just a bitch...
whatever it is, I try my best to be a good, loyal friend to those close to me.
However, sometimes I just have to back off where I know I may not be needed.
I should just mind my own beeswax and speak up when asked.

Yes, that's what I shall do from now on.
Maybe then I won't hurt as much when my feelings aren't considered :)

P.S. One of my best friend's birthday just passed... so, Happy Belated Birthday to Suji aka Christine. Although she most probably won't be reading this as I haven't been able to contact her latelyyyy. :(

<3 suryani