much stronger than forever.

I'm so confused.
Why do I feel this way?
Part of me feels like this is just another phase...
That it'll slowly fade away with time.

Could it be because I'm left stranded and alone?

But part of me feels like "I REALLY WANT IT!"
My conscious is fighting with me though.
There's this tug-of-war going on in my head... and my heart.

It's something I've never felt for so long.
Something I should still get... if everything was alright.
I feel overly excited over this.
When I know I shouldn't...
But I just can't help it.

Will you try to pull me back in?
Or will you just leave me with some slack forever?

Sorry, no random photo today cos I've gotten a little lazy to get my HDD :)

<3 suryani

Don't want to get lost.

So I started out today thinking that I'd be pressured and stressed from having to finish up my assignment that's due on Thursday.
However, as I was trying to finish up my assignment at half past 9 this evening, something happened to lift the mood and lit up my entire night.
Hehehehe...
I honestly haven't felt this way in sooooo long...
which, I guess, sounds bad because I should feel like this everyday...
but with everything that's happened lately, I'm not surprised this straying has continued.
Hahahaha.

I'm in such a bubbly mood...
that I might just sleep early today and hope to dream of this dream :)
AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
Seriously, I feel like I'm in high school all over again...
but this isn't play-play lah.
hahaha.
I've only told 3 people today of what happened.
And hahahaha... I must sound so childish right now, I'm sorry, but it's something I haven't felt for so long.
So I guess it's understandable that I'm reacting this way :)))

But don't misunderstand me ...
deep inside I'm still VERY worried about my assignments.

So here's my random photo from my phone.
It's from my graduation... with Sarah and Isabel!~
It's blurry.. but I love the photo for some reason. :)


<3 suryani